I loved you to the best of my capabilities
Gave you the fraction of myself that remains a stranger to the general public
Never underestimated your anticipated brush with gnreatness
Only left kisses on flesh that others had inflicted their wonds and wished you the best
So it only adds to the the struggle as i attempt to fathom the reason behind your disappearing act
Still searching for an explaination as to why the very soul that claimed me as their everything would abandon me in deperate times
I don’t want you to love me, I don’t care to have you back in my arms; inhaling a sweet musk that could only be associated with you
I don’t need you there on the day of my commencement or as I tuck old memories in preparation for college
I just want to know why
You were my first love, therefore the only one I was able to completely lower my guard for,
Allowing you to see the truth behind my smile and the saddness in my hello
So now as familiar features become cold and foreign
I want to know how you could just walk away without even a glimpse of what you left behind
It amazes me because just last week you filled me with half-truths of your love and a caress that should have meant nothing
